Prayer, God, and Healing
I am an Episcopalian and in our Book of Common Prayer we have prayers for about everything. This is a good thing, when we have a specific need and can't think of what to say. It is a good thing when we pray as a community together. Of course we can pray with our own words any time or just be silent trusting that God already knows are needs and hears us without a word being spoken.
Today I did not feel very well and as they day went on, I felt worse. I ended up in the emergency room and was diagnosed with something serious but not life threatening. Relieved, I picked up the medication that is necessary for me to heal and went home to rest which in my case was sleeping all afternoon. When I woke I was better, not "cured" but better.
Today my prayers were all over the place. Worried I prayed that what was wrong with me would not be serious. Unsure of what to do, I prayed for guidance. When I finally went to the ER, I prayed that everything would turn out okay. When I finally got home, I thanked God for everything--and then prayed for rest. This evening, I looked to the Book of Common Prayer and found this. This is the best prayer of all for me today:
For Trust in God
O God, the source of all health: So fill my heart with faith in
your love, that with calm expectancy I may make room for
your power to possess me, and gracefully accept your
healing; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
Now I have stopped worrying, and am allowing the healing to take place. I am very grateful to God that I have access to health care and the means not only to pay for it but also for the medication that I need to take. I am grateful for all the staff that made sure I was seen quickly and that most of my day was spent healing instead of getting sicker. I am blessed and now know that the healing I need will happen and that God is with me always.
This is a good feeling in spite of my lingering earache, slight headache, and bloody eye. Tomorrow will be a better day and I intend (with God's help) to get a good nights rest.